Journal Entry 11

Author’s Note: Sorry it has been a long time since I wrote the entries on here. I’m sorry. Been wrap up on many different things and working on many different stories. I am going to try and keep this going. Again I’m sorry. Please enjoy!
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Dear Journal,        April 13th
It has been a long time since I remember to come writing on here. I will tell you what had happen since we last talked. Chris asked me three nights ago if I would turn him. My heart was pounding but I gave him my forever death bite. He seem a little in pain and slept for a while. He kept going to work. I was busy taking care of Ruby. I was telling everything she needed to know. She was getting better with talking and even walking now. I was really happy and it seem like she learn how to use the potty chair. Which was good since it was taking a lot of time and energy out of me.
Chris came home and I was still in the nursery with Ruby. Ruby was very needy today. I am not sure why but at least she wasn’t bothered by my new change. A little while after finally getting her to bed, I heard the forever haunting scream of death. At least it sounded like that but I knew it wasn’t. It was just the should of pain coming from my husband being turned. He slowly walked in and seem the change suit him better then me. However he pulled me closer and kiss me deeply. Even with your undead hearts, we still had the passion like we were still humans. Thinking about it I don’t know what to think about my once human self. I guess being a vampire has changed me.
A while back I read in a newspaper that vampires weren’t real. That it was some kind of joke played by humans. Saying that you go crazy one night and turn into a horrible monster that longs for blood. Even I thought about it. How would a vampire be real? I mean I know I am a vampire now but what really is a vampire? A sick bat bites you or something weird like that. I mean that how werewolves went about. They got bitten by a raging wolf dog. Then turn into a huge scary werewolves beasts. They weren’t real but even that could change in a wink of an eye.
Chris and I never really tired talking about it. Just the word vampire send my back on edge. I never really like the feeling. He was tired and went to sleep for the evening. I tried talking to Rick but he seem to be upset about something. I talked to him about how his friend was but he told me that she was doing fine but that they were no longer friends. It was a bit odd that she break up a friendship when she had a hurt leg or whatever it was going on. Chris and I did our best to help him but never really asked what was going on. We didn’t even know he had a relationship with anyone since he stay home most of the time.
I felt alone and felt this strange feeling to go outside. I stared at the stars and Moon. Now they are the only thing I enjoy in life. I can’t go out in the sun or I will burn or worse die. Still the feeling I get can’t change how I am. I do enjoy the moon lit sky and seeing the stars dance around. The plants look so different yet so pretty at night. I saw Chris and Rick finished the fence. They put it up to keep us from going down the path that change my life forever. Even the doctors were still unsure how a vampire was there. Even doctors had doubts about vampires but they had no choice they were real. I was a living proof of that. Make that a dying truth. Since vampires has no hearts really and have not many emotions. Still I was there for my family and my daughter. She is the one I will always love and protect. 
I was outside for a while until finally I decided it was time to go to bed. I was started to get really tired and even climbing up the stairs were hard. Finally after what seem like forever I got into bed and fell asleep.
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April 15th
Today was Ruby’s birthday and life went on. We waited until Chris came back from work. Since he was busy trying to get more money and stay busy. Many people had asked what happen. Since he was now a vampire but he told them that he wanted to be with me and so he made a choice to be turn. After that no one seem to bother him about it. He had a bit of a problem with being too mad about things. Lately he and I would fight about the smallest things or even the big things.
When Chris came home we celebrated Ruby’s birthday and she turn out to be a lovely young lady. She really enjoyed play tea party with her dolls and listened to some music. We all had a good time. I felt kind of bad since Rick wasn’t feeling well but he told us he would make it up to her later. She understood and didn’t seem to mind much. We all watch a nice movie before Chris read Ruby a nice bedtime book.
He came in the room and talked to me asking me if I would try to have another baby. I told him a few times before that I wasn’t sure I could have another. Even the doctors didn’t know. He was getting upset about it but even that seem to stop him. He knew I had a problem and I was lucky to have Ruby. We didn’t talk about it after that. Since he knew deep down if I had another that either the baby or I would not make it. He didn’t want to lose me and I honestly didn’t want to lose him.
We were pretty quiet that night filled with many different thoughts. I know Ruby would wonder about what happen to us or why we look the way we do. I just not sure I am ready to tell her. I don’t want her to know what going on. She won’t really understand and so this would be my own little secret. A secret that Rick, Chris and I know. Which will stay that way for a long time. I just hope that Ruby would understand.
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April 30th
It was the last day of April and Ruby was doing really well in school. She only asked once about what happen but we told her that we were bitten by snakes. We didn’t want her to go after them or anything. We had to lie to her since we didn’t want to tell her the truth yet. She was still young and I didn’t want her to feel like she didn’t need us anymore. She worked hard doing homework and I went back to school. She asked us if we would ever have another brother or sister but told her that mommy couldn’t have anymore children. That she was special to Mommy and Daddy.
Ruby was a little sad but understood where we were coming fun. She did have some friends but kept to herself mostly. Seem like she enjoyed acting and watching movies. We didn’t really stop her from doing that. She loved being a kid. I watch her having a good time in the garden. Learning about the different plants and what they each did. It was just wonderful to watch her. She really enjoy it.
Soon it would be her birthday and I wasn’t sure how things would go since she would be a teenager. I heard things about that ages. That they are hard to handle and that blow up or yell at their parents. I hope Ruby will not be that bad but you never know with that age. We also bought a dog named Skip. Skip was named a friend of ours. He loved to be sailing out and love the water. His dog,  Rose Petal had puppies and he wanted to give us one. Saying that he would be gone and that Rose Petal would be taking care of from his wife and children. He was going to travel the world on his sail boat. We gladly take this cute little puppy.
Skip was a sweet little puppy. We kept him as a secret for a day since we wanted to get his room ready. He stay over at Rick’s little house to be taking care of. While we got his room ready and waited for Ruby to come home. When Ruby came home, we told her that we had an early birthday gift. She was a little surprise but also very excited. Rick came in holding Skip in his arms. She jump up and down. Then took Skip from Rick’s arm and thanked us like crazy. She told us she would take good care of him. We knew she would.
Later on that evening we found out that our dear friend who gave us the puppy passed away while sailing on his boat. I guess some really bad storm came in and it was too strong for his sail boat. We were really sad. I called his wife and she told us everything she knew. I told her how sorry I was and that she understood. She also told me that we would have to get together in few days from now. Since she wanted to take a few minutes to let it sink it. I told her that I understood and we could do whatever we can.
It was a sad night for all of us but somehow little Skip made things better. He was always there licking us or letting us hold him to ease our pain. He is a good boy and I know Ruby was happy to have him in her life. I know I am too.
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Well guys! I hope you enjoy this chapter. I been a while and I am deeply sorry. I will keep going as much as I can. I just busy working on my other stories but I do my best to work on this. Thanks for understanding. Please Enjoy!