Journal Entry 2

Author’s Note: Ruby will be reading this. The date will change as she looks through most of the journals that were not as interesting as these. I hope you enjoy still. You have to listen to this song for this chapter. Smile By: Uncle Kracker

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Dear Journal,              January 1st

O Journal this is so excited. I can’t hold back on telling you this but I found someone. Yes! Me, I found someone who really sweet and caring. His name is Chris Riverstone. We know each other from high school but I didn’t know if we would be together or not. He asked me out before we finished high school. I told him yes and soon we move out together in this semi small apartment. It was pretty much the cheapest apartment they had but we liked it. Chris was really into music and got a job in Music in the theater we had in town. His love of music took him pretty far. Which was one of the reasons I really loved about him. He would play the piano with ease. As for me, I was working in the Film career. You guessed it, I wanted to be an Actress and I hope to go far as I can go.

This day will be like no other Journal. We been living this apartment for a few weeks now. Chris and I were talking about different things. We were very busy with work and hardly saw each other until later in the evening. I was pretty tired and Chris would made me a nice lovely meal. Then after our meal, we either watch some TV or say “goodnight” to each other. However this night was slightly different. Chris pull me closer and gave me a romantic kiss. This kiss was much deeper then ever before.

Then he said, “My love, would you mind if we go on a nice little walk at the butterfly garden? I think some fresh air would due us some good.”

Trying not to be overwhelmed with sleep and wanting to go to bed, I told him yes. We got into the taxi and headed to the butterfly garden. The butterfly garden has been in Bridgeport since I could remember. I remember my parents talking about them building it and everything. Once they were dong building it, everyone would flock over there to see what it is like. I still enjoy being there. It so pretty and I love seeing the different kinds of butterflies as well. Once we arrived there, Chris and I went inside the butterfly garden. Chris took his guitar out and started to play. The music flew in the room. We were alone since it was fairly late in the evening.

The song was this:

“Your better than the best.
I'm lucky just to linger in your light.
Cooler than the flip side of the pillow that's right.
Completely unaware.
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Let me know that it's okay. Yeah it's okay.
And the moments where my good times start to fade.
Chorus:
You make me smile like the sun,
Fall out of bed,
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head,
spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night.
You make me dance like a fool,
forget how to breathe,
shine like a gold,
buzz like a bee.
Just the though of you can drive me wild.
Oh, you make me smile.
Even when you're gone,
somehow you come along.
Just like a flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack.
And just like that,
you steal away the rain,
and just like that.
Chorus:
You make me smile like the sun,
Fall out of bed,
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head,
spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night.
You make me dance like a fool,
forget how to breathe,
shine like a gold,
buzz like a bee.
Just the though of you can drive me wild.
Oh, you make me smile.
Don't know how I lived without you.
Cause everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes.
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool,
forget how to breathe,
shine like gold,
buzz like a bee,
just the thought of you can drive me wild.
Chorus:
You make me smile like the sun,
Fall out of bed,
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head,
spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night.
You make me dance like a fool,
forget how to breathe,
shine like a gold,
buzz like a bee.
Just the though of you can drive me wild.
Oh, you make me smile.
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smile.
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile.” Smile By: Uncle Kracker

After he sang me this song, my heart was leaping up with joy. My heart pound some hard and yet I couldn’t pieces it together. We walked in silences after I told him a few times I liked the song. He just smiled and Thanked me a few times. We came to a lovely breach and sat down. We sat there for sometime, we said nothing and did nothing for a while. Then Chris got up. I wondered what was going on. I was such a silly girl at the time, Journal. I didn’t even know he was going to ask me to marry him.

I softly got up after him and asked if it was time to go. He said, “Wait I have something for you.”

Before I could say anything or do anything, he was bending down as if he lost something. Then he place his one knee down and lift up a small box. As he open the box I saw a beautiful ring. My hands covered my mouth before He asked for my hand in marriage. My mind racing and I giggled like a school girl. I told him yes and we embrace each other with a loving hug. He softly pressed his lips against mine and held me close.

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January 10th

We were giving time off and spend the remaining days together. We plan on when we would have our wedding. Not wanting to wait for very long. We planned on having a wedding a week after we finished another days of work. Everyone at work was happy for us both. We spend lots of time planning on how we wanted the wedding. If we wanted it private or having a nice wedding. We decided we have a small wedding with family, co-workers and friends. The wedding was held, you guess it the butterfly garden. There was music and dancing. We sang songs and sip fine wine. Everyone slowly left and told us how amazing our wedding was. We then went into our small apartment. That night was the best night of my life. We snuggled into each other arm and slept the night away. Enjoying being husband and wife.

A few days later I started feeling really sick. I didn’t know what was going on but felt really tired. I could hardly get up in bed and starting to throw up whatever I was eating. Chris was beginning to worry and seeing that I was too week to move. He called the doctor to come to our house. He came and check on me. He took some test to see what was wrong. He went off to the lab to see what the matter was since he couldn’t do it at our apartment. Then he came back the same day and told me what surprise me the most. I was pregnant. I was really in shock but Chris thanked the doctor as he left. We finally knew what happen. I started to cry. Not because I was having a child but the fact our home was too big for us.

Then Chris told me that he was looking into finding house. He showed me a few he found while I was sick and laid in bed for a few days. I was happy to see some of the nice looking houses. He told me, that he wasn’t really looking for a house because of us having a child but mainly to find a nicer place to live. Since both he and I were making enough money to get us a better looking house. However since I am pregnant now, it was a better time to move. We decided we would live some of the stuff at the apartment for others to use. Since most of the houses we seen were fully furnished. Once we found a house we liked, we called the people and bought the house. We move in the next day before the baby was due to even arrive at. We wanted to get things ready.

In this time frame of things I left out but totally forgotten to add that our dear friend, Rick Green had moved in. He was our dearest friend and now gardener. He told us the sad news that his parents had recently pasted way and he needed a place to live. Since he was mainly wanted to live his life as a gardener but even a gardener didn’t get much pay. Sadly his house was for closer and he didn’t know where to go. He was worried about living in the streets. Since there was lots of bad people out there who could beat you up and steal things from you. We totally didn’t want him to live in the streets at all.

Chris told me after he moved in what was happening, since I was mainly busy trying to eat more and rest. I was always sore and what not. Before the baby was due to arrive, I grew sick. Chris took me to the hospital where they did test on me. Chris stay by myself for sometime but the doctor soon told him to go home. He needed sleep since he wasn’t getting much from being there. Chris stay home and talked to Rick for a while. I don’t know what they were talking about because I was still in the hospital.  I then went into labor which they told me it was still too early but I still went into labor. The doctor called Chris and Chris rushed in to get there.

I was in so much pain that you couldn’t even understand it but our joy of having a baby turn into a nightmare. I think I must of past out or something because I remember was the doctor rush in and seeing that I wasn’t breathing or something. They then quickly got the baby out which at the time, the child die which I didn’t know of because of me being in so much pain. When I woke up, I felt fine and asked where my baby was. No one told me since they then saw my beautiful brown eyes turn to red. The doctor stared at me with deep sadness.

He said, “Scarlet, I deeply sorry but your child had past while we were trying to save you. It looks like you went into shock while trying to give birth to your daughter and sorry to say she is gone.”

He sighed heavy after saying this. He then went on to tell me that I got really sick too. He didn’t know where it came from or how it happen but it made my eyes turn red. They aren’t sure if they will be like that for a while or the rest of my life. I just sat there crying my eyes out. I thought having a baby would be wonderful but my child almost killed me. I was given some medication and hopes it would help make me feel better. Chris then came in the room and I could tell he too had cried tears of sadness. I was given the bill of health and sent home.

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January 25th

The next few weeks past in a blur. It was almost the end of January. I was in the mopping stage of my life. I was still in lost of losing our first child. Deep tears still flow just thinking about it. Chris and Rick did their best for me. They honest did what they could do. The left me alone a few days to let my mind sink in what really happy. In the time that I missed, we had a funeral for our daughter.  Everyone came to it and told us their deep sorry moment for our lose. We thanked everyone for coming. We were left alone at the grave site. I cried for a long time. Chris let me alone to be with our only child that now was gone. I didn’t think of wanting anymore. At least right now. As for my eyes, they are much better now. The went back to their beautiful brown. Which was some sort of bug that happen. They still weren’t really sure the reason to it. Life went on.

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Well guys! I hope you like this chapter. I would keep going on but decided to wait on another important part of the story for the next time. I hope you like this chapter. A bit sad but hopefully it helps with what was going on in Ruby’s life. Please enjoy!